Read this crackfic some moment ago { Life as zhangyixing's penis }

WTF PWAHAHAHHAHAHA

how is it like to be lay's dick omgggggg

havent done reading cause eyes are so painful 

i face the screen for long hours everyday so thats why >3<

God of hormones, lemme have a jongin :3

why am i so perverted .____.

ever since ive gotten myself into this fandom,

i see so much gheiness and skinship among the members.

then i ended up being so pervy. 

:) Already is a perv before i started to stan exo.

nyahaha

should i write fic someday ? ive the urge to do so.

English isnt that proficient enough to write one , and ive no humour.

so forget bout it. 

AND ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

RESULTS TT^TT 

i fcuked up all maths papers 

omg a C will be possible ? 

im so scared,stress is building up day by day.

wonder when will it lose grip and tower over me.

i will be hysterical by that time.

JEBALLLLL 

shitty GPA will get me into depression

and i have to make up my mind.

to go SCIENCE OR NONSCIENCE !

this is bugging me too much.

i dont know what i want? 

not adamant and firm bout my choice.

TT^TT

This is horrible.

Having much conflicts and dilemma with myself 

before results are out yet.

X.X

AYO BLOGGIE.

at a blink of eye, feb is coming to the end.

life still revolves around me being a unemployed jobless person.

who stay indoors all day online-ing.

i wouldnt call my life a lifeless one.

who wouldnt enjoy holidays? 

To prefer school life or holidays,

i'd choose the latter.

jebal gimme a chance to form a gang. with a group of fangirls.

having the same otp and bias as mine.

Sis's besties are exo stans,but sadly my friends arent.

TT^TT even worse, they dislike kpop.

Their typical non-kpopper thoughts are kinda .___. 
reserved.

" Oh geez is he a girl why is he so girlish " 

" all kpop idols look the same "

" who's uehfsdhgfg their names are giving me headache so forget bout it "

" the song has been replayed so frequent on fm im so bored of kpop "

" why are u so obsessed in idols " 

See.

Im so alone.

so i often drown myself in music.

MUSIC THAT I LOVE /;___;\

if it wasnt music that save my soul,

i'd have died from bottled up feelings.

So ah, back to life,

feel so TORN between the choice of courses.

god please lead me to my path.

i know the results arent even released yet,

but still ive gotta get ready.

to celebrate or to cry.

the rumored date is two weeks away.

MY ANXIETY WILL GET SKYROCKETED when its getting near.

so nervousssssss.

this is so important to my life.

i dont wanna be ruined.

i dont wanna see disappointment in my parents' eyes.

i dont like the feeling of guilt.

im too coward to accept failures i guess.

TT^TT

expect me to blog more these days.

My idols are derps.
My idols are idiots.
my idols are sweeties.
My idols are angels.
My idols,please come into the bowl.
<3

Confession post to Ohsehun.
Right from the start sehun wasnt my first bias.
i even had a hard time to remember how he looks like.
yeah,people often notice him cause hes truly VERY goodlooking.
Hes so friggin cute at the same time.
its true that im attracted by him due to his looks first.
but then as day past by,i found that i love everything bout him.
this is how he ruins my life.
the way he rolls his eyes.
the way he speaks.
the way he performs aegyo.
the way he bullies hyungs.
the way he talks to noona.
the way he reacts to fans' teasing
the way he dances
the way he sticks his lil tongue out
the way he shines on stage
oh my, im so possessed ;___;
i can list out a whole lot more.
To conclude,
i like the way he is.
Sehuna,congrats on your high school graduation.
Ohmija has grown up to become ohdult.
as a fan, im so so SO SO proud of you.
He even got 100marks in his maths paper.T^T cries.
uve always wanted fans to promise you one thing.
that is to stay with you until the very end.
Okay lets stay together forever 
and i will never let go

i love this guy too much.
before my real man bumps into my life,
lemme just love him wholeheartedly.
<3

 Goodnight,baby~

我来冒个泡啦！
蛇年快乐!
嗯，团圆饭还是跟往常一样。
气氛诡异，亲戚生疏，各有各吃。
其实嫲嫲去世后，年夜饭对我而言就不一样了。
仅仅是一个饭局。
可有可无。
我只为了吃。

烦心的还有一个游手好闲的四叔。
每次大家庭聚一起的话题总是围绕他。
因为，他带给我们的问题，是一摞摞。
这样坐吃山空真的更好吗。
人生没多少十年让你颓废浪费。
今年，大家没叫上四叔来一起吃。
饭菜上得很慢，我闷得慌。
叫上堂妹和我妹一起自拍。
其实堂妹虽然和我同岁，
我们一样都是读中六先修班。
照理来说我们本应很亲密无间。
多年以来的疏远其实说明了一切。
我们并不熟络。
谈谈天还可以，深交未必能吧。
甚至我的堂哥堂弟们，打从我知道他们的存在开始，
我们一句话都没说上。
确确实实，我们是陌生人。
身上流着同样血脉的陌生人。

看另一方面，跟妈妈那边的亲戚明显亲近好多。
阿姨舅舅喜欢搞笑，家里很热闹，闹哄哄的。
那天我们一起去餐厅吃煮炒。
饭桌上满满的饭菜，可是每个人都不是先顾自己的胃。
你夹菜给我，我夹菜给你。场面很温馨。
一块扣肉也是让来让去的。

反观爸爸那儿，各顾各吃。
吃得挺没形象，而且夹满满的菜进自己的碗内。
没顾及别人吃了没。
呵呵，家人。
算了吧。每年见一次就好。
反正你们也如此现势和势利眼。

新的一年，我要进步！~
我要更爱我的家人朋友和爱豆。
当然也想找个男友来拍拖`。
20岁人了，青春在流失！！！！！
 谁愿意就来把我带走 T^T

EXO的部分我用华语更.

其实那么夜了,等的粉丝人数没有想象的多.

场面完全是可以被控制的.

四点后,我们的神经开始紧绷,

他们随时都有出来的可能.

我们拿了鹿晗,蕾蕾还有队长的手幅.

 拍了全体认证照.

在VIP通道等他们出来。

跟机场工作的马来警察沟通了一番后。

他们说exo会从这出来。

我们兴奋了好一阵子。他们人好好，帮我们拍照 ，聊天什么的。

我告诉他们我没睡觉没回家一天一夜只为了等他们来！

慢慢的，警察人数变很多！可是韩国警卫不见了！

保姆车都没有一辆！

他们很吊儿郎当的样子，连帽子都没戴，坐在一旁。

他们的笑容很讽刺！！！我们开始问了是真的吗是真的吗，你们没骗我们？！

他们说ADA ADA，CONFIRMED可是样子很心虚！！！！

过后我们听到他说了很大声的一声：ｋｅｓｉａｎ！

我们彻底慌了！明杰看到他在暗搓搓挥手叫我们走！

我们立刻跑掉！去三楼！

奇怪了，没警卫！外面有停着保姆车。六辆。

可是玻璃窗是透明的。　朋友看见ｇｄａ工作人员在外面。

过了老久，粉丝搭电梯走上走下的巡着。

韩站怒那从关内出来了，她们神情很奇怪，异常的平静。

根本就没有要去追ｅｘｏ的样子了，估计她们在里面看够了。

然后一个女人，我不知道她是谁，应该是机场工作人员。

她问我们：korea superstar?　我们说是！

她告诉我们他们在一楼的ｂｕｓ　ｔｅｒｍｉｎａｌ　ｔｒａｉｎ　ｓｔａｔｉｏｎ那边！

就快要离开了。

心脏快要停了当时。为了确定我问她，ｉｓ　ｉｔ　１２　ｂｏｙｓ？她说是！

我们立刻跑去！然后遇到那个韩国朦猪眼警卫！

我们看他进电梯就死活跟着他。

他耍了聪明，按了很多楼。

可是电梯玻璃是透明的，我们看到他真的去一楼！

妈的！上面一大票妹子全被耍了！

我看到新交的朋友站在那儿哭的时候我就知道！

是他们！！！！！！！　Ｔ︿Ｔ

冲去那边的时候，他们在巴士上坐着。窗帘已被关上！

工作人员在置放行李。

我在窗帘的缝隙中看见白贤了！！！！　是白贤啊！！！！！！！

他带着眼镜，貌似有点不开森！

我们在门口疯狂得喊：ＢＡＥＫＨＹＵＮ　ＢＡＥＫＨＹＵＮ　！！！！

 朦猪眼就档着我们，还推了我一下。

我又没有要出去，推什么推，我只是在喊罢了

小可爱看见了，可是他躲开！！！！

心都碎一地了。可能他累了吧。怎么可能不累，从一早就从韩国转机去香港，再来吉隆坡。

 白贤啊！！！　ＴＴ

过后我们胡乱叫一通了。

我一次又一次喊着ＳＥＨＵＮＡ　ＳＥＨＵＮＮＮＮＮＮ　用生命去呐喊。哈哈。

其他朋友们就喊自己的本命！！！！！

世勋从窗帘探头出来看了一下。

我疯了！ＴＴ　北鼻很可爱！灰头发啊！奶白的皮肤！眼睛弯弯的。

可是就只有那一秒！那一秒把我秒死了。

才看到一点点就那么帅，如果能看到整张脸我会一脸血！熬！我的白久　ＴＴ　

车开始启动，他们要走了。

 我们喊破喉咙地叫。意想不到的事发生了！

鹿晗，应该是鹿晗。金黄色的头发的鹿！

他拿了一个好像是兔子的玩偶，跟我们挥手了。

啊！！！！！！！！！！！　

萌碎了！顿时觉得好安慰，鹿爷很萌啊，ｆａｎ　ｓｅｒｖｉｃｅ我们了！！！　激动！！！

看着巴士开走了，还挺失落的。

巴士另外一边的饭给开开比心了，开儿点头回应他！啊！！！！没看到开啊～

还想唱生日歌给他听呢。我儿子！！！！！！　ＴＴ

我们聚在一起聊天。

妹妹的朋友哭了，因为看不见自己的本命。

我们也被情绪感染了，气氛很低落。

挺为他们感到心疼的，很可怜。

可是楼上那大群中国妹子，和马来饭，不是更可怜吗。

她们被人耍，警卫还要放ｄｉｖｉｄｅｒ来制造假象。尼玛。

我们虽然没能看见十二人，但是应该要很满足了。

感谢主！感谢贵人！他们给的暗示和提示我们很珍惜。

回家前我们想好好谢谢他们，可是见不到了。

后来听见有其他妹子也哭了。</3

 遗憾的部分是没能看见十二只。

没关系了，不重要了，知足才会快乐。

我不后悔这两天内如此疯狂得穿梭在机场的每一个角落。

看到了他们后，我更确定了。

我一定！！！一定！！！！！　会去看他们表演。

给他们应援！！！　看着帅气的他们在舞台上发光。

SMTOWN是最有可能的了，今年之内如果他们来的话，我会买票去看。

TT　再等等吧，花心的我不会变心了。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。只爱你们！ＥＸＯ！　

AHHH *back in ipoh my town.

even atm,

i still couldnt believe i met EXO in person.

OMFG and it wasnt really easy to see them OR even catch a glimpse of them for a few seconds.

This will be a really long one.

i need to spend an hour or two to write it all out.

MY EXO FEELS T^T

So we boarded the bus on 0114 1130pm

then when we reached airport it was only 320 in the morning .__.

Yeah we estimated the wrong time, but its ohkay, since its our first time there.

we walked around the place , exploring and making assumptions which entrance will our idols use.

there were some small groups of fangirls here and there.Not many though.

the 5 of us were like homeless people we sat on the floor at the arrival hall.

Ppl come and go,staring at us like we're weird.

If they are conscious of whats happening, they would say : GANGNAM STYLE or KPOP SUPERSTAR

I know we all have that FANGIRL look, its too obvious XD they couldnt just ignore us like that.

Had breakkie at macdonalds 4 in the morning. 

This caused me a bloated stomach T^T

waited the whole morning and we kept looking for spots to charge our phones and ipads.

 Ppl on twitter and weibo posted bout the flight info.

infinite 4minute and B1A4 were rumoured to reach here at 430 0114.

uhm not really a fan of those 3 kpop groups, i know they exist.

i listen to their songs, just dont stan them. :) 

but still i'd want to see them if i have the chance , why not ? 

And we saw local reporters unnies! they revealed only a bit of the infos they have.

 did a small interview with us but we didnt allow them to take our photos HAHAHA.

Too shy to see our faces on the papers. .__.

in the afternoon FINALLY fans started to flock in.

we had already secured the front part of the barrier at the arrival hall.

we stood there starting from 12.it was sucha excruciating long wait.

we took turns to go toilets and buy lunch.

and when the time is near, we saw GDA staffs and security guards and airport police doing preparation.

Reporters from korea got ready with their cameras on, they recorded cams of us shouting and waving to the camera >< 

whenever there was a big group of people walked past infinite fans would all go " AHHHHHH "

giving us wrong signals. Dayum,just dont shout at random people okay.

Lee Chong Wei, Lee Yong Dae and some sport icons came out. that was totally out of expectation!

LOL we all gone wild and shouted their names! my god lyd is truly handsome,no joke.lcw looks tall in person he was taken aback to see the crowds XD

The clock showed its 6,1.5 hours since their plane landed in msia, why aint they out yet ? 

i grumbled a little in my heart, cause legs were highly fatigued and i could hardly move.

fans behind jailed me in between the barrier and their bodies all the time, they just lean in too near. >< 

To make it short , we were FOOLED. polices said THEY SUDAH BALIK THEY LEFT BY VIP

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF we all believed cause we saw some guy in suit , a korean man, 

directing the guards where to stand, and hes been telling us to behave.WTFFFFFF.

so fine, we were really speechless cause we didnt aim to see them at first.

wanted to try out our luck. then we rested afterwards.

at night , they allowed fans to sit in rows around the VIP area.

B1A4 came out from nowhere, fans were hyped up. >< guards are TROLLS!

we didnt go to sit there cause we know, we would be controlled by the time we have our butts on the floor.

guards wouldnt even let fans leave their seats.

we talked to a few exo fangirls while hiding in the toilets.

guards are too clever they would approach fangirls and persuade them to sit down.><

then only we got to know exo is arriving at 5 in the morning

FML T^T T^T T^T i quickly called back to the bus agency here to make arrangement again.

already changed the time once to 230am and now we postponed it to the next morning 900am.

 Then after 950 lotsa kpop groups arrived in KLIA.

i kept strolling here and there with sis's friend.

somewhere far from the guards cause they'd chase us away ><

screams were loud and we know it must be beast !

i ran all the away from the departure hall and then stopped at a spot!

fangirls screams were louder than ever, i recorded a short video of beast walking past the fans!

Doojoon waved at fans, thats all i saw. HAHA tbh hes really handsome in person!!!

went out to the entrance and there their vans were all standby waiting.

Huiyi held her beast official towel, and yoseob waved back at her like a kid. :) 

Later on ,i saw goohara jungshin yonghwa yesung eunhyuk :) 

Yesung is very very goodlooking,T^T if hes still my bias i would die of his hotness.

then the chaotic airport went back to its normal mode,

police asked fans to go back, they say "HABIS HABIS" "SEMUA BALIK"

ohkay but we're definitely not going back kyahahahahhaa.

spent the night at kopitiam we drank coffee and had some refreshment.

chitchatted with our new friends. napped.

This is the first part.

Its really a long story .____.

LOL

Holidays

9 months of holidays are so long. So I've been keeping myself occupied. I work as part time worker from Monday to Saturday. Uhm work isn't really tedious just that I get bruises and cuts and wounds very easily. Hands are cacated right now. But then scars are healing slowly. Errr my co/workers are mostly Malay Indian and Chinese. It's sorta like satu Malaysia over there at my workplace I gotta converse with them using my not-so-fluently-spoken Malay hahaha I stutter a lot when I fail to phrase a sentence :)nvm I'm still learning very hard now. I get along with another Malay girl who also happens to be my peer. And one thing that makes me so saddddd recently is that this friend of mine who I treasure a lot. She's back in the town now due to sem break . And I tried to ask her out but the outing didn't seem to be on. Part if the reasons is that my working hours are quite long I can't squeeze time in between to meet up with her. I wonder did she ever bother to see me in person? Since its been quite some while we've last met each other. I feel so touching when another BFF of mine tried so hard to see me before she went back to her institute. She even drove me back and forth and we had a nice chat at a cafe. Sighs. Tmr I've to get my ass to the workplace again :S work is dreadful when u don't enjoy even a bit! And don't like socializing with hypocrites over there. Too much drama you people! Ohkayyy so I've let it all out I feeeeeel so much more better ! :)