Hi

Here I am .
Rolling my eyes .
Side eyeing everything.

Idk why am I so not-in-tha-mood today.
Crappy day. Prolly because of pms again .
That biatch that bugs me every month

Sigh I want freedom sometimes
I hope I can move outta the house and have my own personal space.
Being able to decide what to have for lunch and dinner , blast loud music in my own place , lay on couch spreading my legs as wide as I like cause noone's gonna see me,hog all the mbps for wifi

Lolol i wasnt serious.didn't want to leave my home so eagerly I was emotional so I moved to my room upstairs which is my personal space and the bitchy wifi just couldn't work. (¬_¬) ugh and I've to get my ass back to downstairs instead.

And this girl whom I followed mutually on twitter , I don't really click well with her ? But I'm kinda like stuck ? LOL cause I asked for a follback at the first place.so If i unfollow her first I'd feel so bad like I've commited sin. And i find this weird i dont feel like wanting to tweet whenever shes on twitter.It's really difficult to find a certain someone who can click well with u understands u or think alike like BANANA NO.1 and BANANA NO.2.


Oh and I just had a NAISEEEE convo with Katie . Like seriously if I'm close with U id go overboard to harass you or talk bout nc-17 stuff.ive no boundaries with my besties.NYAHAHAHAHA

Thou shall be touched every part of your boday if u consider ME as your friend
-squints eyes-

Gotta sleep going to temple tmr YAY I can meet up with the CACTUS.

OHAIYO

i was thinking maybe i should put up a " WARNING " before i write any fangirling post and flail over my idols, u guys are so not gonna like the way i spazz. or maybe u will snort at it and hit the x button on the top right.

ive a habit of night blogging using my podpod aka my reddie itouchie recently.sighhhhhhhh. so fcuking bored man. what is life what is love what is hate what is time what am i.

sigh went to the stoba page on facebook.

all my high achiever friends in stpm got their NTU offers.

so envious. i want to go singapore too TAT

and nowwwwwwww, im so worried bout the courses i might get !

O.O  :( sigh all i ever want is to get a place in the RU.

and work in big cities or even singapore next time.\

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

STRESSED stressed STRESSED

My current lifeu

Every single time relatives come to my house they would ask : why ain't u working why dontchu get yourself a job ! Istg i get that alot recently omgggg it's time to stop all these shyt and start to hunt for a proper job.butte I am lazy.

Uhm and I need to rant it all out. Cause I'm all time netizen now so i stalk oppas and pedo over didis every day every minute every second I spazz as much as the amount I breathe.

So I've met this fav person in the fandom I personally like her a lot a lot cause i used to uhm only ask her questions and never got the chance to talk to her and go on to convos. Last week we spoke for quite a long time.Butte this is bittersweet cause me wanting to get closer with her SO BADLY she's quite busy all the time contributing to the fandom so yeah I wont interfere and start off convo even though I have the need to speak to somebody.

Tbh I'm a greedy person. I want to befriend ppl and get close if I've gained a liking on that someone. If u ever come into my life ill try my best to keep you locked inside me and never set u free. Lololol i hope u don't find me creepy if ure reading this my rl friends. I love u guys as always okkkkk don't chu ever try to drop out of our friendship hahaha cause y'all are stuck ! Stuck being friends with thonggai

色混泥

Birthday post for ohsehun

LOL procrastination is my specialty !

Okay so when I talk to kpoppers who know exo ((recognizes all members)) they will ask : who's your bias in the group ? I would say \o/ sehun and jongin of course I love them equally much

They will be like :" oh, another sehun stan. He's liked by everyone. " 

SIGH like everyone acknowledges his existence because of his looks.

he's not really the spotlight
of the group cause he's not the main lead dancer and jongin's screen time is def longer than him. Singing isn't his thing too his position is a rapper and another lead dancer of k

But question why do I Stan him ?

He's so lovable and I often get annoyed by him. Somehow I think he has got some stage behavior problem , LOL his mind always seem to wander off on stage , DEAR SON, concentrateee stop rolling your eyes and sticking your huge tongue out to lick your lips okayyy.

Oh when I first listened to the leaked ver of wolf last month I was so so so proud of him bc of the increase of his lines in the song TAT he may look fierce and unapproachable all the time and gives off the snobbish aura but I'd say he's not , from my observation on him offstage, he is so shy , and always do stupid stuff to embarrass himself. DUMMIE DUMMIE ME LIKEY QAQ

sehun ily :) I always love u as my bias okay. Sigh if it wasnt him and my ot12,my last year of teen age would have gone wasted on being a nerd / secretly admiring any random guisee in school (eww I would never have thought)

Now that ure so well grown up :) please be a better singer and a better person and most importantly u must be safe and healthy :D may happiness surrounds him so that my beautiful boy can smile every single dayyy :)

小屁孩 成年快乐

呵呵 我老啦 愿我还能走能跳能跑的时候

让我好好看你在舞台上表演 TAT

DILEMMA

dateline of USM and UPU application is on 14th and 15th April & I'm still having a dilemma . To go for arts / sciences. (¬_¬) UGH

Human relations / management / finance accountancy

OR

food science & tech / dietetics / physiotherapy

Choices in life

I gave up on SG uni application.
IM JUST SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

And no,I'm not gonna regret later. After all, I chose to give up at first so I won't whine and feel remorse. My band5 for muet is actually beneficial for me to apply for sg scholar but not my stpm pointer though. i may be lucky enough to get admission but family cant afford me to go there. Did my usm and upu application few days ago. I've got to edit it again for the last time after attending the stoba talk on this Saturday.

Talked to some last batch seniors. They guided me and I've learnt a lot. They told me ; fret not cause my cgpa is good enough to get into research unis.
I've decided, I'm aiming for food science and technology.UPM has the best food faculty among all unis.i hope I manage to get that though. I made it my first choice. :)

>Sis is going to utar to study foundation in arts on may. Four months ahead of me. SOBS. Hopefully I will get what I want and I don't want to be a burden to dad. Dad joked the other day saying that the family have to ikat perut because two daughters are leaving home for higher education at the same time TT_TT

Anyway, lets hope for the best :3 will sleep in a bit! Nights bloggai~

前路迷茫

TAT
the scariest part of stpm is not the exam itself.
but the whole load of stress you experienced post-exam.
results are out already.
 on monday.

Mine is average.
on the borderline of 3.5
My cgpa is 3.5.
i got A for biology A- for chemi B+ for maths and B for PA.
 my hard work is paid off.
cause i spent MOST of the time on biology so i deserve an A.
and chemi uhm, i wasnt steady in school all this while so im satisfied.
i did not practice really hard for maths though.
so im okay with the B+ too.
BUT WHY THE HELL I GOT A B FOR PA.
that was really out of expectation
:/
i was on the verge of breaking down 
when i got my result slip.
with trembling hands i punched some numbers on ipod to calculate cgpa.
and there 3.5 appeared.
heart stopped beating for a few seconds

TAT i know most of the ppl neglect PA all the time.
i studied so hard for PA paper 1 this time and i got A for the paper.
but a C- for paper 2. i fcuking flunked my paper 2.
CRIES. what went wrong ? :( 
my paper 2 is always better than my paper 1.

I HID MYSELF AT THE JAGA BOOTH 
i stayed away from crowds.
and i just stared at the wall spacing out.
later when shuqi came to look for me , 
i burst into tears upon seeing her.
TAT 
yes , i aimed high very high for PA .
</3 
this B is a heartwrenching B.
family made me feel so touched  T^T
especially dad's " nevermind u tried your very best already"
 NGAW T^T

i shall move on.
this isnt the end yet.
wipes away tears*
and now ive to start applying for courses!

:)
BE POSITIVEEEE.