AYO BLOGGIE.

at a blink of eye, feb is coming to the end.

life still revolves around me being a unemployed jobless person.

who stay indoors all day online-ing.

i wouldnt call my life a lifeless one.

who wouldnt enjoy holidays? 

To prefer school life or holidays,

i'd choose the latter.

jebal gimme a chance to form a gang. with a group of fangirls.

having the same otp and bias as mine.

Sis's besties are exo stans,but sadly my friends arent.

TT^TT even worse, they dislike kpop.

Their typical non-kpopper thoughts are kinda .___. 
reserved.

" Oh geez is he a girl why is he so girlish " 

" all kpop idols look the same "

" who's uehfsdhgfg their names are giving me headache so forget bout it "

" the song has been replayed so frequent on fm im so bored of kpop "

" why are u so obsessed in idols " 

See.

Im so alone.

so i often drown myself in music.

MUSIC THAT I LOVE /;___;\

if it wasnt music that save my soul,

i'd have died from bottled up feelings.

So ah, back to life,

feel so TORN between the choice of courses.

god please lead me to my path.

i know the results arent even released yet,

but still ive gotta get ready.

to celebrate or to cry.

the rumored date is two weeks away.

MY ANXIETY WILL GET SKYROCKETED when its getting near.

so nervousssssss.

this is so important to my life.

i dont wanna be ruined.

i dont wanna see disappointment in my parents' eyes.

i dont like the feeling of guilt.

im too coward to accept failures i guess.

TT^TT

expect me to blog more these days.

My idols are derps.
My idols are idiots.
my idols are sweeties.
My idols are angels.
My idols,please come into the bowl.
<3

Confession post to Ohsehun.
Right from the start sehun wasnt my first bias.
i even had a hard time to remember how he looks like.
yeah,people often notice him cause hes truly VERY goodlooking.
Hes so friggin cute at the same time.
its true that im attracted by him due to his looks first.
but then as day past by,i found that i love everything bout him.
this is how he ruins my life.
the way he rolls his eyes.
the way he speaks.
the way he performs aegyo.
the way he bullies hyungs.
the way he talks to noona.
the way he reacts to fans' teasing
the way he dances
the way he sticks his lil tongue out
the way he shines on stage
oh my, im so possessed ;___;
i can list out a whole lot more.
To conclude,
i like the way he is.
Sehuna,congrats on your high school graduation.
Ohmija has grown up to become ohdult.
as a fan, im so so SO SO proud of you.
He even got 100marks in his maths paper.T^T cries.
uve always wanted fans to promise you one thing.
that is to stay with you until the very end.
Okay lets stay together forever 
and i will never let go

i love this guy too much.
before my real man bumps into my life,
lemme just love him wholeheartedly.
<3

 Goodnight,baby~

我来冒个泡啦！
蛇年快乐!
嗯，团圆饭还是跟往常一样。
气氛诡异，亲戚生疏，各有各吃。
其实嫲嫲去世后，年夜饭对我而言就不一样了。
仅仅是一个饭局。
可有可无。
我只为了吃。

烦心的还有一个游手好闲的四叔。
每次大家庭聚一起的话题总是围绕他。
因为，他带给我们的问题，是一摞摞。
这样坐吃山空真的更好吗。
人生没多少十年让你颓废浪费。
今年，大家没叫上四叔来一起吃。
饭菜上得很慢，我闷得慌。
叫上堂妹和我妹一起自拍。
其实堂妹虽然和我同岁，
我们一样都是读中六先修班。
照理来说我们本应很亲密无间。
多年以来的疏远其实说明了一切。
我们并不熟络。
谈谈天还可以，深交未必能吧。
甚至我的堂哥堂弟们，打从我知道他们的存在开始，
我们一句话都没说上。
确确实实，我们是陌生人。
身上流着同样血脉的陌生人。

看另一方面，跟妈妈那边的亲戚明显亲近好多。
阿姨舅舅喜欢搞笑，家里很热闹，闹哄哄的。
那天我们一起去餐厅吃煮炒。
饭桌上满满的饭菜，可是每个人都不是先顾自己的胃。
你夹菜给我，我夹菜给你。场面很温馨。
一块扣肉也是让来让去的。

反观爸爸那儿，各顾各吃。
吃得挺没形象，而且夹满满的菜进自己的碗内。
没顾及别人吃了没。
呵呵，家人。
算了吧。每年见一次就好。
反正你们也如此现势和势利眼。

新的一年，我要进步！~
我要更爱我的家人朋友和爱豆。
当然也想找个男友来拍拖`。
20岁人了，青春在流失！！！！！
 谁愿意就来把我带走 T^T