Choices in life

I gave up on SG uni application.
IM JUST SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

And no,I'm not gonna regret later. After all, I chose to give up at first so I won't whine and feel remorse. My band5 for muet is actually beneficial for me to apply for sg scholar but not my stpm pointer though. i may be lucky enough to get admission but family cant afford me to go there. Did my usm and upu application few days ago. I've got to edit it again for the last time after attending the stoba talk on this Saturday.

Talked to some last batch seniors. They guided me and I've learnt a lot. They told me ; fret not cause my cgpa is good enough to get into research unis.
I've decided, I'm aiming for food science and technology.UPM has the best food faculty among all unis.i hope I manage to get that though. I made it my first choice. :)

>Sis is going to utar to study foundation in arts on may. Four months ahead of me. SOBS. Hopefully I will get what I want and I don't want to be a burden to dad. Dad joked the other day saying that the family have to ikat perut because two daughters are leaving home for higher education at the same time TT_TT

Anyway, lets hope for the best :3 will sleep in a bit! Nights bloggai~

前路迷茫

TAT
the scariest part of stpm is not the exam itself.
but the whole load of stress you experienced post-exam.
results are out already.
 on monday.

Mine is average.
on the borderline of 3.5
My cgpa is 3.5.
i got A for biology A- for chemi B+ for maths and B for PA.
 my hard work is paid off.
cause i spent MOST of the time on biology so i deserve an A.
and chemi uhm, i wasnt steady in school all this while so im satisfied.
i did not practice really hard for maths though.
so im okay with the B+ too.
BUT WHY THE HELL I GOT A B FOR PA.
that was really out of expectation
:/
i was on the verge of breaking down 
when i got my result slip.
with trembling hands i punched some numbers on ipod to calculate cgpa.
and there 3.5 appeared.
heart stopped beating for a few seconds

TAT i know most of the ppl neglect PA all the time.
i studied so hard for PA paper 1 this time and i got A for the paper.
but a C- for paper 2. i fcuking flunked my paper 2.
CRIES. what went wrong ? :( 
my paper 2 is always better than my paper 1.

I HID MYSELF AT THE JAGA BOOTH 
i stayed away from crowds.
and i just stared at the wall spacing out.
later when shuqi came to look for me , 
i burst into tears upon seeing her.
TAT 
yes , i aimed high very high for PA .
</3 
this B is a heartwrenching B.
family made me feel so touched  T^T
especially dad's " nevermind u tried your very best already"
 NGAW T^T

i shall move on.
this isnt the end yet.
wipes away tears*
and now ive to start applying for courses!

:)
BE POSITIVEEEE.

Sloppy me

我越来越宅了

Yes sloppiness. Call myself a slob cause I wear starwalk tee at home all day. I don't get to dress up myself these days cause I'm not even going out AT ALL.

Rumors bout my idols' comeback or so are constantly flying all over my face. And I find that so annoying would they stop it spreading already. Yes there are always a stench of fangirls with shitty personality in this fandom. I've seen so many ;__;

Talk bout courses :/ still indecisive bout it
Pn ng asked me the other day and that had me speechless. Utterly speechless. I did answer her. Just to fuhin LOL
I've so many other alternative courses in my mind so that's why I can't choose.




Nights.
Flaps arms/ cause I see a sehun :-*

Late night emoness

One fine day i will die from the mixed emotions. T^T yes I'm gonna abuse my blog verbally everydayyyyyy from now on! RAH cause that's the reason I created it?

啊啊啊啊 卧槽 压力山大啊
有没有什么可以解解压！

有！
金钟淫！

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着?!

Kailu forever

SQUEALS AND PULLS HAIR!

Kailu is giving me so much feels tonight ;____; I can't handle it any longer.

Jongin and luhan spotted shopping tgt and having dinner at night.

Who the hell eat dinner that way Luhannie wrapped his arms around Kai's shoulder I'm so done now.

No one ever knows how hard I ship them cause MY SHIP IS SAILING BY ITSELF ALL THE TIME !

I wanna kms RN

Hereby I announce ,

i will make this day a kailu day \(^0^)/

友情真的和爱情一样吗，一旦没经营就会消失？

我曾经以为好朋友毕业后，就算一年见几次面就足够了，
不用天天腻在一块，心事也是累积几个月才来说。
我是不怎么主动的人，可是不代表你发生的事我没看在眼里。
朋友需要我的话我一定不会置之不理。

为什么我还是那么介意？
就连聚餐你也能避开就避。
我知道你避开的理由。
可是我们也是你的老朋友。
一点时间也不愿挤出来吗。

算了，朋友不应该计较谁主动还是不主动。
如果当初两人都被动，朋友就做不成了不是吗。

我希望你还记得我。
还愿意抽出那么一点时间来跟我叙叙旧。

就算我们回不去当初的日子，
可是你还是我珍惜的人。

Read this crackfic some moment ago { Life as zhangyixing's penis }

WTF PWAHAHAHHAHAHA

how is it like to be lay's dick omgggggg

havent done reading cause eyes are so painful 

i face the screen for long hours everyday so thats why >3<

God of hormones, lemme have a jongin :3

why am i so perverted .____.

ever since ive gotten myself into this fandom,

i see so much gheiness and skinship among the members.

then i ended up being so pervy. 

:) Already is a perv before i started to stan exo.

nyahaha

should i write fic someday ? ive the urge to do so.

English isnt that proficient enough to write one , and ive no humour.

so forget bout it. 

AND ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

RESULTS TT^TT 

i fcuked up all maths papers 

omg a C will be possible ? 

im so scared,stress is building up day by day.

wonder when will it lose grip and tower over me.

i will be hysterical by that time.

JEBALLLLL 

shitty GPA will get me into depression

and i have to make up my mind.

to go SCIENCE OR NONSCIENCE !

this is bugging me too much.

i dont know what i want? 

not adamant and firm bout my choice.

TT^TT

This is horrible.

Having much conflicts and dilemma with myself 

before results are out yet.

X.X