妈妈 我爱你 TTTTT 回来一收拾行李又发现妈妈帮我打点了好多东西 还帮我修理好多东西 我这个人又不会煮饭缝衣 只会吃 没有妈咪我该怎么办 阿爸在我回去那天也摸了摸我的头 叫我努力 他说他没给压力给我 我尽力就好 TTTTT 我会好好的  ♡  想家了又 这个月不能回家 

嗨

人儿们都我过的开心吗 我就会说 酱咯 没有很开心 也不会太伤心 我的心是不是死了啊 以前form6的时候 我跟gang里每一个人都可以混的很熟 现在？算了吧

上个礼拜midsem break就那天去唱k katie啊 一看到我的学生card 就跟yen说 你看阿彤酱丑 我当时立刻就骂回去 哈哈哈哈 真的不会生气的 好朋友从来就是只会扁 不会赞 好吗 我常说 好朋友是拿来伤害的 现在突然又想她们了 那班傻婆 疯子 我敢说 那天是我两个月以来 笑得最多 喊的最多 疯的最多的一天 踩沙发自拍 故意唱走音啊 对着mic喊 这次回去见到她们 我觉得值了 还有另外四个 我也很想她们 TT 娴平时又忙到鬼酱 很少能真的见面 都是偶遇 唉 跟舒棋又是 偶遇 TT 人人都忙死啦 

好了 进主题了 我现在实在很。。不自在 好吧 天蝎座的敏感和神经质是与生俱来的 我真的有很强烈的感觉 这个朋友不喜欢我 从以前她向来对我蛮亲近的 到现在 只要我跟另两个在这gang比较要好的朋友说话 说久一点 她都会走掉啊 或者再去粘其他人 还有其实我的noti里不会再有她的名字了 呵呵 她唯一还会给反应like的东西就只有我和那另外两个朋友的照片 不是介不介意她不like我的东西 可是她这样我反而更加敏感 我更加不安 我宁愿她完全不要like就好，既然要不喜欢我的话 就彻底点吧，或者我做错过什么 得罪过你什么 你都可以跟我说 我道歉就是了 我不踩你地雷就是了 这种无声的折磨让我很痛苦 我不想想太多 这样很烦 可是我真的挺喜欢这朋友的 到现在 她会跟我说话的时候 大概就是 ：你会不会这一课 你会不会做 

 

搞得我现在不想合群 想避开她们了 因为我觉得奇怪的是 只要我跟她们其他三个一聊到兴奋的时候 她在一旁也不插嘴 我觉得很不自在 也许我不在 她会比较开心一点吧 我知道她很喜欢很喜欢另外三个朋友 怎么办 我现在好像一个很让人厌烦的女人 这其实很小事 小到我不知道能找谁讲 我也应该庆幸不是什么大事 我也不知道我能做什么去挽回 自己去搓破？我没那么勇 我就装傻咯 可是我真的很心痛的 毕竟要面对四年 

对不起 我做人不够圆滑 说话不够玲珑。会不会有一天我变成完全都不说话了 就是因为怕说错话 回到我form 4 form 5的时候 连同班同学毕业后跟我说 我的同座讲她不知道有你这样的人存在 

或者像美虹说的 我变的像那种可以有手机上网就可以不用有朋友陪的人

我相信我可以 骨子里有loner的血 哈哈哈 

可是我怕

人都是怕寂寞的 

我很喜欢现在的自己 是真的 我比以前开朗 唯一不变就是还是会转牛角尖 呵呵

还有这次我终于见到我网友啦啦啦啦 

很奇妙 在网上无所不谈的朋友见到了 抱到了 哈哈哈 只是还没打 ><被她打就有 不是吗 其实还有太多的朋友值得我去爱了 我知道她们也爱我 哈哈哈 所以阿 这件事 就只有写一次那么多！不会再有了 好舒服啊 说了出来后果然心 好像没那么烦 

我的本命

i remember not liking jongin. i remember him being my least favourite in exo when i first got to know exo. i remember i sounded nonchalant and unconcerned seeing medical patches on jongin's back. i remember i blamed sm for giving him all the spotlight.i remember i secretly hated on kailu when i was a hardcore xunlu selu hunhan shipper. i remember i was like " there's no way i would stan this guy NOOOO!!! "

 SHOULD I SLAP MYSELF AND FLING MYSELF OFF A CLIFF. LMAO.

女人就是犯贱的不是吗。哈哈哈哈人家也是女人嘛。

Dear bias ,

KimJongIn. JinZhongRen. Kai from EXOK.

940114 <3

hes a 94er. that makes me a noona. Without i realizing he crept all the way and got to the top of my bias list, hes at my #1 rn, and ofc sehun's still there i wouldnt kick that baby away NEVER.sehuns been my baby since 2012 sigh despite how ppl out there label him as bij face/rude/no talents/useless member of exo,im still attracted to him somehow. i believe,one day those haters would regret saying that. C; *stubbornly clinging on to sehun*

Ah,Im here to talk bout jongin ok shoooo sehun. no sehunnnn. HAHAHHA

Jongin or Kai, Kai or jongin. 

stanning him is never easy. i get to see two sides of him.

Kai pulls off his sexy charismatic self on stage.

whereas jongin is one big fluffY cute adorb sincere warmhearted boy offstage.

how can u not love kai. 

okay if u love him as a sama in one of the exo pairings, be it kailu kaisoo kaibaek sekai kaimyun kimjongbrothers kaixing kaitao chankai.

the way he looks into the eyes' of the person when someone talks. GOD PLSSSS. 

that is so luring somehow HIS GAZE HIS GLARE. 

and how he massages the members' shoulders. 

patting the back of their necks. 

hes also a kid. things he does are childish. 

having snowball fight with chanyeol. 

playing with his rabbit ears(wolf bandana)

whispering to luhan for no reason.

poking sehun's ears during his thanku speech.

theres lots more to list out but. ;u;

im TRAPPPPPPEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

i love his inside his intestine juices his heart his everything.

hes such boyfriend material. haha little things he do makes my heart flutter.

the heartteus he gives fans,how he waves at fans (his lil bear paws TT) 

the cheesy the flirty fanboard messages ( i likeu cheesy cliche things cough cough)

his interactions with fans during fansigns, his reactions.

ofc his love for his fans,hyungs,noona,family & puppies.

Okay, ily baybeh i always doooooo.

i want to see you in real life. *never gives up*

must watch jongin dancing on the stage.
 listening to him rapping live.

seeing him drenched in sweat.

smelling the pheromones the hormones he let out.

seeing him gasping for breath after perf.

dying from his smirks.
collapsing from his sheksiness.
taking a photo of his derp face

我是终极脑残。

jinzhongren w.a.n. nini

性感的舞者老腰要顾好啊~

姐姐下个月不能来看你了唉

没关系还有机会的，要多来我国家嘛 TT 

OU.
ive not been pooping posts like in 4 months? 
never write for god-knows-how-long 

i got an offer in USM main campus.
food tech my first choice.
and i'll leaving on 31st august. 
NOT READY TO LEAVE HOME YET TAT
cozy bed,my room aka warzone.

dad bought me a new laptop from the it fair hours ago.
and blogging by using it right away now.
windows 8 is complicated O.O HEOL

well,i should be writing a jongin post VERY SOON.
my jongin feels are soaring or skyrocketting in all ways.
i just want a jongin boyfriend gdi. 
not necessarily having good looks like him, but alike in personality.
i love his outside & inside.that precious lil thingggg my fluff ball <3
ay? fangirl-self is out again

shall sleep. nights

Hi

Here I am .
Rolling my eyes .
Side eyeing everything.

Idk why am I so not-in-tha-mood today.
Crappy day. Prolly because of pms again .
That biatch that bugs me every month

Sigh I want freedom sometimes
I hope I can move outta the house and have my own personal space.
Being able to decide what to have for lunch and dinner , blast loud music in my own place , lay on couch spreading my legs as wide as I like cause noone's gonna see me,hog all the mbps for wifi

Lolol i wasnt serious.didn't want to leave my home so eagerly I was emotional so I moved to my room upstairs which is my personal space and the bitchy wifi just couldn't work. (¬_¬) ugh and I've to get my ass back to downstairs instead.

And this girl whom I followed mutually on twitter , I don't really click well with her ? But I'm kinda like stuck ? LOL cause I asked for a follback at the first place.so If i unfollow her first I'd feel so bad like I've commited sin. And i find this weird i dont feel like wanting to tweet whenever shes on twitter.It's really difficult to find a certain someone who can click well with u understands u or think alike like BANANA NO.1 and BANANA NO.2.


Oh and I just had a NAISEEEE convo with Katie . Like seriously if I'm close with U id go overboard to harass you or talk bout nc-17 stuff.ive no boundaries with my besties.NYAHAHAHAHA

Thou shall be touched every part of your boday if u consider ME as your friend
-squints eyes-

Gotta sleep going to temple tmr YAY I can meet up with the CACTUS.

OHAIYO

i was thinking maybe i should put up a " WARNING " before i write any fangirling post and flail over my idols, u guys are so not gonna like the way i spazz. or maybe u will snort at it and hit the x button on the top right.

ive a habit of night blogging using my podpod aka my reddie itouchie recently.sighhhhhhhh. so fcuking bored man. what is life what is love what is hate what is time what am i.

sigh went to the stoba page on facebook.

all my high achiever friends in stpm got their NTU offers.

so envious. i want to go singapore too TAT

and nowwwwwwww, im so worried bout the courses i might get !

O.O  :( sigh all i ever want is to get a place in the RU.

and work in big cities or even singapore next time.\

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

STRESSED stressed STRESSED

My current lifeu

Every single time relatives come to my house they would ask : why ain't u working why dontchu get yourself a job ! Istg i get that alot recently omgggg it's time to stop all these shyt and start to hunt for a proper job.butte I am lazy.

Uhm and I need to rant it all out. Cause I'm all time netizen now so i stalk oppas and pedo over didis every day every minute every second I spazz as much as the amount I breathe.

So I've met this fav person in the fandom I personally like her a lot a lot cause i used to uhm only ask her questions and never got the chance to talk to her and go on to convos. Last week we spoke for quite a long time.Butte this is bittersweet cause me wanting to get closer with her SO BADLY she's quite busy all the time contributing to the fandom so yeah I wont interfere and start off convo even though I have the need to speak to somebody.

Tbh I'm a greedy person. I want to befriend ppl and get close if I've gained a liking on that someone. If u ever come into my life ill try my best to keep you locked inside me and never set u free. Lololol i hope u don't find me creepy if ure reading this my rl friends. I love u guys as always okkkkk don't chu ever try to drop out of our friendship hahaha cause y'all are stuck ! Stuck being friends with thonggai